Coffees and Commutes

Shaken

October 17, 2011

I’m struggling with faith right now. I’m struggling just when I could use it most. I’ll be honest, I feel like I’ve given God more than His fair share of chances, and I’m tired of him taking and taking. I know I sound spoiled and ungrateful. I know that in the grand scheme, my life [...]

One year

October 10, 2011

It has been a year. Three hundred and sixty-five long and yet intensely spiritual days since I first admitted publicly, and more importantly to myself, that I was drowning from depression. I came here in those early days to share my first tentative steps forward. It has been here that I’ve shared all of my [...]

My Pink Network

October 4, 2011

When I got married 11 years ago, my aunt told me: No matter what, don’t forget your girlfriends. At the time, I remember thinking Of course I won’t! I was blissfully naive. We had just bought our first home located, conveniently, only a few blocks from my office and were free of the responsibility of two little boys who five years later would claim [...]

Eleven

September 30, 2011

How do you define eleven? A university degree. Five professional positions, with five different organizations. Two houses, built with our blood, sweat and tears. A family member with a serious ongoing mental illness. My own struggle with depression and anxiety. Cancer, a brain aneurysm, and quadruple bypass heart surgery. Vacations to the Bahamas, Cuba, Las Vegas, Florida, the Maritimes, Victoria and [...]

Hidden

September 28, 2011

Delighted and honoured to be a guest at Life After Benjamin today with a post about the loss of my mother. I hope you’ll stop by for a visit. Thank you Alana for having me.

So little, so much

September 27, 2011

We’re almost a month into the school year and I feel as though all I did was blink. Could we really be approaching the end of September? The weeks are rolling by like the fields and forests on a cross-country road-trip, you know you are passing through but you basically only get a glimpse. I wish [...]

The Master Bedroom

September 19, 2011

Friday night I flaked out on my couch. I don’t do this often, usually any and all free time is filled quickly with some activity or another, chores, reading, writing or a multitude of other things. My husband was out with a friend, and I was wiped from a busy week, so I snuggled with [...]

On authenticity

September 11, 2011

All summer I’ve been chewing on the notion of authenticity. What it is? What does it mean to me? I took a hard long look at myself and really wondered whether I can truly call myself authentic. And, if not, did it matter very much? My journey over the last year and a half has taken [...]

Jack-in-the-box

September 5, 2011

It’s Sunday night. Tomorrow my 5-year-old starts back to school. This is not a great adjustment because our routine barely changes, aside from my having to make lunches every night. He’s ready, he misses his friends, and I think he needs more stimulation than he’s been getting all summer at our child care provider. So, [...]

I know this

September 2, 2011

When I sat there in that dark room, remembering to breathe, I recognized an inherent inauthenticity in my mothering: I was resolute and cheerful; I was scared all the time. What I felt had nothing to do with how I acted. – Claire Dederer, Poser: My life in twenty-three yoga poses. In more ways that [...]

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